Loser
–Looking back, I used to be like a protagonist.
My childhood friend Yuzuki and I lived in the same neighborhood, and we had been together ever since we were little.
In elementary school, I became very close with Kirari, who became my classmate, and we played together as if we were best friends of the same s*x.
When I became a junior high school student, my mother, who was a single parent, got married and I got a stepsister. For the next three years, I spent time with Azusa as if we were real siblings.
So the three of them were very special to me.
I had such …… special feelings for them that I was sure that one of them would be my life partner in the future and we would spend the rest of our lives together.
I was close to three such attractive people.
It’s an unusual fortune.
I’m sure I could be mistaken for the protagonist–and I think I could be.
It’s not that there was anything special about the three of them.
Yuzuki just happened to live in my neighborhood, Kirari just happened to be my classmate, and Azusa just happened to be the child of someone my mother remarried.
There was no fateful encounter, but that didn’t change the fact that the three of them were special. And I thought that the three of them must have seen me as special, too.
But that was my mistake.
(TLN: OMG FINALLY!???)
It wasn’t “fate” that brought me together with these girls, it was just a coincidence.
It seems that to them, I was just a stranger.
In other words, I was the only one who had special feelings for them.
At the entrance ceremony of the high school, the moment the story of Ryoma Ryuzaki, the harem protagonist, began, I realized my mistake.
Congratulations, the three of them had been discovered by Ryoma Ryuzaki.
They met him, and for the first time, they met the “real” protagonist.
And at the same time, they realized.
They realized that I was the first “protagonist”.
“Onii-chan … Well, maybe Azusa’s real Onii-chan might be Ryoma Onii-chan.”
That’s what my stepsister told me, and I lost the significance of being a brother.
“Kotaro-san …… I think I may have met my destiny. For the first time, I’ve met someone I want to give my all to.”
That’s what my childhood friend told me, and I was no longer even a good friend of hers. She became obsessed with Ryuzaki and eventually started to forget about me.
“I’m sorry, Ko-kun. There’s someone I’ve fallen in love with. I’ll do whatever it takes to make him like me……. Even if it kills the me I’ve always been, I want to be the person he likes.”
My best friend Kirari sacrificed even her own personality to be liked by Ryuzaki. She dyed her hair, put in colored contacts, changed her tone of voice, and twisted her personality.
She was no longer Kirari Asakura, my best friend. She became Asakura-san, a complete stranger.
In other words, I lost the three people who were special to me at the same time.
It was an unbelievable fall for the protagonist.
It’s a cruel ending, even for the sake of the story.
…… I was not really in love with them.
If I had to say whether I liked them or not, I liked them, but I didn’t have any ulterior motives for them or anything like that.
I didn’t think of them as special because they were girls, because they were cute, or because I wanted to go out with them.
It was just that they were important to me and I felt special.
I wanted to get to know them better if I could.
If I may be so bold as to say that it would be ideal if I could go out with any one of the three …… people.
However, in the worst case scenario, if they marry someone who isn’t …… me, that’s fine, as long as they’re happy.
However, even having such thoughts seemed to be a hindrance to the girls……, and my existence has been painted with the color of Ryuzaki.
It’s not possible to be the protagonist like this.
That’s why I thought of myself like this.
I’m like a mob character.
When I thought about it that way, I felt a lot better.
I was hurt because I had mistakenly thought I was the protagonist, but once I accepted that I was a mob character, I was able to relax.
Even if I was betrayed, disappointed, or had my expectations lowered, it was all inevitable.
Because I’m a mob character, it’s only natural.
That’s how I came to recognize myself as a mob character.
I’ve come to think of everything from a meta perspective, and I’ve forced myself to accept my lack of rewards.
But if I’m being honest, …… I wanted to be a protagonist, too.
I didn’t become a mob character because I wanted to.
Ryuzaki……, so you’re not a loser.
The loser is me.
The pathetic mob character who mistook himself for the protagonist, if not a loser?
Finally we go into why he is the way he is, Obsessed with himself being a mob character.
So it’s a coping mechanism, okay, but to constantly remind yourself that you’re a mob?
He could’ve tried to regain their attention and they shut him out, finally I can properly start theorizing.
This is why shiho will always be the best girl.
He doesn’t hate him because he steal his love interest , rather it is because he steal his family and important friends . Love interest comes and go but when a family or friend go there is no chance of coming back . Like imagine if your girlfriend leave you you will sad but not as sad as when your friend or a family member leave friend for years,you spent so many moments and times , share secrets , friend who claim you down. Hear you rant idiotic conversation help when you are sad .
Basically confirms what I thought. Wasn’t NTR as people complained but the MC just hated that he was left alone simply because of one person and coped with it by blaming himself.
Thanks for the chapter
he finally realized his mistake.
this chapter makes it clear to me that the 3 girls are trash and do not deserve a happy ending.
even if they only see him as a friend/family don’t just cut off all relationship because you fell in love that’s wrong.
remember friends and family are more important than a love that you don’t know if it will work